i have never been accused of not having any
i am emotional. when it comes to money.
power. possession.
or whenever it benefits me.
to throw myself into an emotional relationship
would be a little risky. most of the time i would try to avoid.
to me emotion is a singular property.
either i have it or do not, it makes no difference to the relationship.
i am not obliged to commit emotionally.
even when it comes to sex.
i prefer to put it aside.
we do not want such fun events to be mired by slight upheaval of emotional unpredictability. it is safer to do things together knowing what to expect from the opposite ends. i get crazy most of the time trying to rationalise or interpret subtle hints from the other half. especially when my mind is occupied on getting it done. they call it foreplay because it is about playing and see what comes out of it. some couples stay up all night long trying to establish emotional bond between one another.
i tried that.
that was far more tiring than sex itself.
and sometimes i didnt even get to the sex part at all.
they call it cuddling. spooning. act that transcends lovemaking. it appears to be necessary to ensure the other party is emotionally secure before committing into further rigorous physical act.
i called it a form of communication.
and communication comes in variety of forms. and it does not necessarily have to involve any emotional affinity. which is far safer since the purpose of communication is to exchange information with objectivity and sense of clarity. by being emotional about it tends to murk the interpretation and further confused the appropriate response from the other party.
this sounded very narrow. i know.
but in truth, life is just.
emotions more often than not, complicate.
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