the episode

it was a whirlwind episode.
turbulent.

at the end, we tried to pretend it did not happen. and our daily routine was not at all affected. until few minutes before her plane takes off.

she hugged me. tight.
were you mad at me,
i asked

she shook her head
she said,
you know i love you.

i said i know.
but really that was the first i heard from her.

that.
is a keeper, mate.

breaking up with adele

have you tried imagining yourself breaking up with adele.

she has this look in her pretty eyes that startled me for awhile. not in a good way.
those kind of look that should be illegal. if it was a laser beam, it would have decapitated the loser's head already.

that is why breaking up is hard.

you can reason anyway you like. either be dramatic or playing it cool. it is simply impolite to tell somebody we refuse to be attached to them anymore. there is no reason to be rational about it. so we minimised the contact as much as possible. this is very rude, we said. quickly finished our cheap drinks and flee the scene before she even had the seconds to digest.

adele can say many things in the pretext of keeping it cool.
but we all know it is not.

falling blank

they said longer eye contact could induce deep attraction. or release of hormone that is responsible for causing us to fall in love.

i tried only recently. into the eyes of someone beautiful and attractive.

i tried.
for few seconds.
then i went blank.

so un-attractive.