i think i may be capable of violence.
sometimes i feel i can just grab a hammer and smash someone's head.
whack their cheekbones. again and again.
and again.
and i will not feel an ounce of pain. or guilt.
or regret.
heightened by a certain sensation that flooded my senseless action.
i am afraid i might feel relieved at the end of it.
or worse.
i might feel that i just want to keep hitting.
smashing skulls. until they turn into a grotesque mash of deformed faces.
feeling a brooding storm of anger overtakes my sanity.
fueled perhaps by their scream, or lack thereof.
sometimes i think
that might be the only answer that seems appropriate. and sensible.
